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♥ Friday, March 31, 2006 ♥

have to find someday and relax le...this week is so busy with my audit works......going to client's place and go for stock take....heard from my college this client need about 1 week to finish all the audit works, wao!! have to take a long time to finish, shock sia!! that time, i only went for 1 and a half day only. but for this client i already been there for 2 days le..today left my college alone there because i got to go for stock take in the afternoon with another college...so today i didn't go to client's place but going back to office..this doesn't mean i got nothing to wor, i have to prepare all the confirmation letters for this client, this will be easy for us to do the touch up work...really miss stella sia, just a few days didn't saw her but i feel that i had been a long time didn't saw like that....well, she is one of my close poly's friend sia..knew her about 3 years since my 1st yr in poly...dunno when both of us will have free time to go for shopping....and teresa also..miss her also...heez!!! elisa and jas already already in china for about 1 week le ba..dunno how's their daily life there, should be very fun..cos i heard from them, they got prepared a lot of activities for the children there...hope they can success in what they had prepared!! think i will go to airport to 'jie ji' when they are back to singapore..cos last time didn't go so this i must can find a time to go there...

today heard from hoo, that he going to resign le..he only works until begining of apr or somewhere around april ba..he said he will let me know when is his last day in the company!! shock sia, never think that he will resign soon...cos last time when one of college said he wants to resign but not sure when is it, i dun believe it but now i have to believe le lor since he told me personally while we went to do stock take today... at first he thought that i already know when he will resign but it is not lor.i told him i only he wanna resign but dunno is true or not lor...after clarify with him, the answer is yes lor..haiz, my company auditor keep going to resign..the turnover is fast sia..the auditor come and go....like fashion like..after a while will have a new one!!!well, he said the auditor firm is like that de lor...lucky today we got chit chat, not like last time went to client's place...maybe this time we just do stock take, not so stress...all the best to him ba..btw tmr will be anna's last day in my company le...talked to her once only lor..now she wanna to go liao..

tell you wat, next time i dun wan to go clinic to do stock count liao..really really 'zhao gao' lor..look at the stock list that given by the assistant there..got 3 pages of the medicines' name!! OMG, the list is so long lor, look at the name i also dunno wat it is about lor..what to do!! have to do work also!! start to count the medicines with my college, he counts half then i take over...really testing our maths hor..keep on calculate how many tablets they have..need to plus, minus and times!!! aiyo...aiyo!!! some more one medicine got the same but different mg de lor then have to look very carefully...but quite fun la..cos i never been go for stock count..hope can go for another place for stock count!! at first this saturday, my manager wan to bring jer and i go to do stock count but cancel le cos i already went for stock count already then jer go with my manager...hmmm, after they came back have to ask jer, what is my manager requirment when do stock count!!must remember to do it!!

feel stress le la.. my boss already gave me a case that had to be done by next wednesday..some more is the 1st yr account lor..i dun have any prior yr audit works to refer to..think have to figure out by myself le..if really cant, ask hoo?? ask my manager?? ask other?? aiya, i also dunno!!hope can finish up within the deadline!! why i feel stress because my boss will be the one that review my audit work lor..i dun wan, must do properly and must all the necessary things in all the audit working paper although they this is very easy one!! but for me is very tough lor...some more the accounts manager said that i can handle it de just in front of the boss...this make me more nervous sia..got somebody can help me!! wanna cry le la!!! started to train me le!! i wanna still wan to slack in the office lei...well i'm a lazy person, not that kind of hardworking one nor!!!

get my pay today..hmmm, think tmr morning can bank in my pay le..now my bank very poor le...have to deposit some money into it..if not, i really dun have money to spend on my daily expenses!! although i quite little, but i also feel happy le at least at this moment can spend a bit on what i like..heez!! got to stop le, tmr still have to work!!! GOOD NIGHT....

♥ Last Written @ 3:45 AM

♥ Sunday, March 26, 2006 ♥

wao...already one week le...haiz...had been working from monday to saturday!!! feel tired sia, somemore the job scope is so stress...oh no, that day heard jer said my boss told her manager that need to give me deadline already.......feel like crying le la....i dun wan any deadline sia, i can't slack there and do nothing..of course can't do nothing la..but at least no deadline can be relax a bit, slowly do my things...but this seem to be impossible already le....now i feel like to change a new working environment, but i hope can find an audit job...cos through audit really can learn a lot thing and very practical too!!!! hope so!! pray!!!pray!!! OPPS!

today, reached my office more early than the other days....cos lesser ppl took bus on saturday.. this is true de lor... not many company still have to work for 5.5 days working days...well well, my company is one of the minority lor..no choice, i am one of the employees there! heez, today finally can chat a bit with my company receptionist....saw her when taking lift to 4th level..we took together, she said i am so early..and i replied that the bus is very fast today! haha! good la at least talk to her today!! i bought famous amos biscuits and daisy chocolate milk for my breakfast!! yummy..yummy..the biscuits is so delicious.this is one of my favourite..i also shared with jer and anna..heez!! saw yeo too...he came to office to sign the log book..he saw stel name and he came to my place to see whether stel there..of course she's not here la cos that one was i help her to signed de...heez!! stel straight away go to client's place..chat with yeo for a while then he went to client's place le...this is the 1st time i talked to her!! feel very relax, cos all my colleges there seem to be different from themselves!! normally from monday to friday, they seldom talk to each other, they very busy with their work and look very strict de..dunno why this morning they seem to be change to another person!! i also dunno why??? (*.*)= they were chit-chatting with other, n laughing!! they talked a lot, and very funny too...i was laughing when i heard their conversation...hahahaha!!!

jer's manager gave me to do accounts cos their deadline is on next monday i think!! so have to rush lor!!! haiz...can't balance..dunno wat went wrong but nvm she said she'll help me to reconcil it...then she also told me that monday have to go to client's place to audit, this is a big company think will need around 4 days to complete our audit tasks...cry le la..this few days sure can't go off early le lor..need to stay back with her and to all the things..gal u wanna go!!! heez!! then friday have to go another client's place to do stock count..this time is go with hoo again...hope he won't be so queit la..i will be very boring de lei...nobody talk to me then all time i am the one who keep on talking...shit la!!! i am so talkative!!!heez!! all my friends knew it, somemore stel said i change le lor since i start work there..is it true gal?? think maybe ba''''''''haha'''''''have to do something to motivate myself and try to relax ma..smile can anti-aging wor..somemore everyday we so stress and dun have so much time to rest lor...

well..well.stop complaining le la!!! feel happy.pass all my modules..quite satisfied with my result...but my audit not so good..expected already..my common test not so good!! all my friends pass their exam too, heez!!! u know stel's result is super super super good de lor...sure can get in university one lor...now all of us can feel relax and relief le, no to worry about our result whether pass or not..now all of us can graduate le..i now i am still thinking of taking ACCA as partime..if i wanna take, i wan to pass all the 14 papers within 2 yrs...this is my wish!! so now i will have to save up a sum of money 1st so that i can have money to pursue my studies.. jia you ba!!

♥ Last Written @ 3:48 PM

♥ Tuesday, March 21, 2006 ♥

well..well..well...having a week didn't update my blog le..this is the time..

haiz...already started working now..work as an auditor at an audit firm which including other 3 department in there: tax, corp sec, audit and accounts.. after working a week, now i know that works as an auditor is not an easy job and not as easy as i am thinking of... everything i had learned in school is totally different from wat i am doing now!! in school all we learned is about the theory and difficult for us to imagine how the audit work is done and what is procedures and which document should file together with our working papers, wat is the standard tick mark and colour should be used in all the working papers.....oh my god..really got a lot of things to learn and to remember.. my audit manager told me that once i am get used to it u will know wat to do...hmmm, maybe ba!! heez!!

after attend to the training that arranged for us on last saturday, feel more stress...cos that day the we really like having lecture and tutorial...this make me think of the time i had my tuition during my secondary school...whereby after the teacher had giving their explaination and instructions, we will have to start doing our work on the spot and hand in...during the training, 3 of us ( stel, jerl, & i) was the new staff there, and didn't have any audit experience before...3 of us just listen to wat she said and try to understand it.frankly speaking, most of the explaination, we not so understand lor and still got the practice paper to do lor..haiz!!! we just look at the paper and mind blank.dunno where to start with and wat to write on the working papers...as before that my manager got give me some audit paper to do..at least i can roughly understand the document to be used for the fixed assets but some of them i also do wrongly le and now i will have to start all over again.wat to do!! this is the audit working environment!! somemore on that day, 3 of us had been questioning in front of all the staff there and sometime we dunno how to answer for it sia..anyhow answer for it..lucky got it right!!! that day i really have to recall wat we had learned in school like cost accounting...the FIFO thing..haiz...and the net realisable value and the lower of cost!!! aiyo..aiyo!!! nevermind slowly learn lor!!!

today i had follow my college "hoo" going to client's place at suntec...wao the company so big sia and the view also very nice!! from there can see the padang and raffles place wor....reached there and straight away start work liao!! this is the 1st time i going to client's place to do audit!! working with hoo...hmm...not bad also la cos he very familiar with the audit job already and that the training, the auditor frm KPMG said that he had done a good job and good documentation for his working paper..today got learn a lot.. but some still can't remember sia..think have to do it many times le la...hope i really can do a good audit job lor...cos i found this job not bad also, really expose to many different business industry and how other companies operate their company..like the case that given by manager: the company is dealing with medical thing....at 1st i start doing the cash in hand and cash at bank, 2nd related parties, 3rd other creditors, accruals, loan form directors, 4th check the expenses, 5th do the necessary journal entries to adjust the figure and these amount have to be account for in the financial statement! from these working papers..really have to do casting, the rate, where to vouched to , which amount to be agreed to, what documents have to photocopy out and make as a supporting documents...then will have to let hoo check for it....sometime i really plug in a wrong figure and have to re-do again and take the correct amount..lucky i realise ot if not..later do the financial statemet sure can't balance one!! after i had done all these, i will have to draft out the financial statement...well, i can't balance cos got some adjustment have to pass..after that then can do the financial statement!! today i talk a lot..heez!!! just the like the normal of me, but my college seem to be very quiet wor!!! nevermind......talk less and do more work..haha..then can concentrate!!

after going to client's place, meet stella at dhoby ghaut bus stop..then we went to heeren..guess wat..i found a shop that sell a lot of beads...and other accesories too...love that shop very much...think after i get my 1st pay have to save up some money and go there to buy some ..i have long time didn't do any earrings for myself le!! at 1st we wanna go for ear piercing...but end up..we didn't go for it.haha...

have to sleep le...tmr still need to go to client's place to finish my work!! hope tmr can finish up and do a new things!!!!!

♥ Last Written @ 3:08 PM

♥ Monday, March 13, 2006 ♥

just back from Malaysia....going back on Saturday...at first this day wanna join stella and others for the SIM open house..but no choice i had to bring some important thing for my cousin 'photo' and had to go to the temple 'wei ta shang xiang'....reached there i feel terrible, can't control my emotions and tears anymore...i cried in front of him and my family, cos i dun wan to visit him in this kind of situation....wat i wan is i wan him to be alive and hang out with me...now is meaningless, he is no longer here but i believe that all of us will always remember him and live in our heart.......i really really miss him now, we had been live one roof since we were young.......we study together, play together, go fishing and many mores....

my mum told me that they were so uncomfortable without him while doing works because all the time my cousin was helping my father to cook all the dishes and now not anymore.. my mum also told me that in the morning they keep on calling his name..just like the normal day..but think about it....haiz......feel sad again....i am also like that..when i was having dinner, i keep on thinking that can't eat too much wor, must keep some foods for my cousin..because normally he is the last one to have dinner de so everytime we'll keep some foods for him, but my sis told me that 'u think too much, u can eat as much as u can no need to left up the foods, he no longer here', after i heard it i then realized...feel like crying again....

after dinner, all of my family members gather in the living.....chit-chat, which like wat we does everytime..think this is why my family's bond is so strong....we'll share with each other our thoughts and ideas..when my aunt talked about how the accident happen, everyone seem very quiet, and listen, i cried again...again...after listened all the process, that night i can't sleep well..the pictures keep on appear in my mind...once i close up my eyes, i can imagine how the accident being happen and wat had happen to him in the hospital....my aunt said just let the time to wash off our sadness, slowly recover and just think that my cousin had been out for work..although this is not true, but we still have to accept this...we will remember u forever..u r my best cousin forever....forever....

dunno when i can recover from the sadness, one is my grandmum and the other one is my cousin....-.-

♥ Last Written @ 11:07 AM

♥ Friday, March 10, 2006 ♥

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this is my self-test result...hmmmm...will it be true about myself!!

Ai ling has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

Ai ling's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told ai ling that she wasn't a great and beautiful person, and she believed them. Ai ling also has a fear that she might fail if she takes large risks. Therefore she resists setting her goals too high, risking failure. She doesn't have the internal confidence that frees her to take risks and chance failure. Ai ling is capable of accomplishing much more than she is presently achieving. All this relates to her self-esteem. Ai ling's self-concept is artificially low. Ai ling will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because she is afraid that if she makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for ai ling to plan too far into the future. She kind of takes things on a day to day basis. She may tell you her dreams but she is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud she speaks, look at her actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Ai ling is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.

In reference to ai ling's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When ai ling slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Ai ling can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

ai ling will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!

ai ling will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Ai ling believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.

Most people with a severe leftward slant have some type of childhood trauma they have yet to work through. Since we didn?t actually ?see the writing?, we can?t tell if she actually has a hard left emotional slant, but if so? she has issues with trust and it is likely rooted in childhood. Ai ling has withdrawn into herself. She is reserved and shows her feelings only at times of great anger, extreme passion, or tremendous stress. Ai ling is an introvert. She makes decisions based on logic, therefore she is rarely impulsive. She doesn't find any need for expressing her emotions. In fact, she probably sees this emotional expression as an unnecessary waste of time. She has a hard time relating to an extreme extrovert, although it is common for her to be attracted to one. Many people do not understand ai ling; it is difficult for them to really know how ai ling feels. Ai ling enjoys being alone, and probably prefers working alone. Working with her hands is a pleasure. Ai ling's basic nature is to look out for herself first. Although she can and does feel emotions, perhaps as deeply as anyone, she just almost always harbors them inside. The first time someone angers ai ling, she probably will not say anything to that person at that time. However, she will mentally keep track of everything this person does wrong to her until she cannot hold her emotions inside any longer. Then; Boom! Ai ling will cloud up and rain all over them. And she will never regret telling someone off, because she knew what she was saying the entire time. She won't impulsively tell someone off. Emotional stories will not sway ai ling. She thinks totally with judgment, first considering every situation by the effect it will have on her. Ai ling needs space and time alone. She will be much more efficient if given a job alone, rather than being surrounded by people.

ai ling tends to write a bit smaller than the average person.? When a person's letters are small and tiny, this indicates an ability to focus and concentrate.? This character trait is a huge asset in careers like math, science, race car driving, and flying planes.? However, if ai ling writes tiny all of the time, she? will also display characteristics of someone who is socially introverted.? Ai ling will often sit on the sideline and watch others get the attention at parties.?? she might be willing to open up and be warm, but only in small groups or a select group of people.? When she is busy working on a project, it is common for all other noises and distractions to just fade away and? her ability to focus is incredible.? When she says she didn't hear you... really, she didn't hear you.?

♥ Last Written @ 4:15 AM

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life is so unpredictable, everything can happen just at the next moment or tomorrow!!!! you won't know wat is it, until it happen just right in front of you!!!! it can be a serious matter and bringing you a sad memory and remain in your memory forever....just like a scar that can't be heal and remain in your heart!!!

this morning received a call from my mum....is really shock when i heard the news, my mind just blank off, can't think of anything to say, then i just keep silent and hearing wat my mum is talking!! this is the news that i dun want to hear in my life, because it does a sad memory, make me feel heart pain and remain a scar in my heart!! my cousin passed away last night, he still young, just 19 only...why he just leave us like that, grandmum just passed away last month!! is really being a great 'da ji' for me....i was crying, and crying....can't take it anymore!! i can't help anything, just stand aside and accept wat is happen in front of me!!! '_' this suddenly happen, all my family members can't believe it, and never thought of it................i think the last time i saw him was the time i went back during the study break ( 18.2.2006)..when the time i reached home, we all decided to go to genting for 1 day, he just sit beside me and we were having fun all the way to genting.. i never thought that this was the last time we went out together, seeing each other, take photos and having fun......now my hp only have one photo that belong me and him...thats the only photo i have..just same as my grandmum and i....only have 1 photo..these 2 photos will become my precious one and never delete it....i suddenly lost 2 of my family members just in 2 month, how come our life is so short and unpredictable!!! why???

i was thinking that this coming 18 march, i will be going back to hometown and all of us will be going to genting again...we had promised for this since that day, why he doesn't keep the promise....we will be going together, but now i will be alone....sad..sad..!!!!

i feel that i had change a lot, whether in mind or emotion...i dun like these, hate ' xian zai de wo'....now every day seem to be a sad day for me....heart feel pain......

我的内心世界已变成了灰色地带！

♥ Last Written @ 3:09 AM