♥ Eileen Chan ♥ .
17.07 .
Graduated .
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♥ Monday, March 13, 2006 ♥
just back from Malaysia....going back on Saturday...at first this day wanna join stella and others for the SIM open house..but no choice i had to bring some important thing for my cousin 'photo' and had to go to the temple 'wei ta shang xiang'....reached there i feel terrible, can't control my emotions and tears anymore...i cried in front of him and my family, cos i dun wan to visit him in this kind of situation....wat i wan is i wan him to be alive and hang out with me...now is meaningless, he is no longer here but i believe that all of us will always remember him and live in our heart.......i really really miss him now, we had been live one roof since we were young.......we study together, play together, go fishing and many mores....
my mum told me that they were so uncomfortable without him while doing works because all the time my cousin was helping my father to cook all the dishes and now not anymore.. my mum also told me that in the morning they keep on calling his name..just like the normal day..but think about it....haiz......feel sad again....i am also like that..when i was having dinner, i keep on thinking that can't eat too much wor, must keep some foods for my cousin..because normally he is the last one to have dinner de so everytime we'll keep some foods for him, but my sis told me that 'u think too much, u can eat as much as u can no need to left up the foods, he no longer here', after i heard it i then realized...feel like crying again....
after dinner, all of my family members gather in the living.....chit-chat, which like wat we does everytime..think this is why my family's bond is so strong....we'll share with each other our thoughts and ideas..when my aunt talked about how the accident happen, everyone seem very quiet, and listen, i cried again...again...after listened all the process, that night i can't sleep well..the pictures keep on appear in my mind...once i close up my eyes, i can imagine how the accident being happen and wat had happen to him in the hospital....my aunt said just let the time to wash off our sadness, slowly recover and just think that my cousin had been out for work..although this is not true, but we still have to accept this...we will remember u forever..u r my best cousin forever....forever....
dunno when i can recover from the sadness, one is my grandmum and the other one is my cousin....-.-
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