~珍惜现有的幸福~

♥ Saturday, October 21, 2006 ♥

well..i admit that i getting more n more emotional and can't tolerate wat she has done to me ever since she has move to aunt's house and live with us...maybe i think too much or wat..or her character just different from me...

why she just like always wants to ask me those kind of irrelevant question..can't think of it then ask or not ark..haiz..really can't stand it..ya.maybe i am too emotional or wat or i dun have a good mood on that particular day..or that day is my blue day..i really find that i did change a lot..Especially my character..dunno why also..for the past, no matter wat question she asked me i always can give her the question patiently, and wont show her 'face colour'..can she stop asking y i always come back late, where am i going, going with who, go there for wat..oh no...u expect me to answer all these kind of qns everyday mei..like making report to you like that..oh my goodness gracious..i am not going to answer ok..u may think i have attitude problem, or dun like u or u feel like i am very 'jiao ao'..i am fine with it, u wan think it this way, up to you!!! i am dun care, or u go n complain to your mum...i am also dun mind...i enough of it already, suffer for abt 10 yrs ++ since i was a child..dun ever interface my problem ok..i dun like, i dun like...

just like today, i am using my lappie to decorate my photos and she suddenly ask me whethe her photo got inside my lappie or not...eh..i suddenly feel ('.')'''..how come u ask me this kind of qns..haiz..do u know how i answer her qns..i said why my lappie have ur photo?? maybe she interpret wrongly that i am not willing to answer her question..and u know wat did she said she siad y i answer her question with this kind tone and she even said i am very...haiz..i am speechless..she wants to say whatever bad abt me i dun care already la..i just ignore it..

when i can become the past of me...i wan me back...can tolerate her and patient..maybe it is true for ppl said that there is a limit for our patient..really true..this already happen on myself...i still remember that when i was in secondary school..got one day i went to my best friend house to do some discussion and that day my mother was out left my aunt, cousins(of course including her la),and grandmum(miss her very much)..that day i went out until evening then went home..as my mum not at home then i will have to ask my aunt to come to my friend's house to fetch me back..then i make a call back and she answer the call..i ask her to inform her mum that i wanna go back home and whether she can come n fetch me or not..then wat had happen..i really really burst out and throwing my anger to her..i feel damn angry and paiseh cos I never behave like this before just right in front of my friend…do u know that how she answer me when I asked her whether she can help me ask her mum to come n fetch..she said that u went out until so late still wan ppl go fetch u, my mum not free and she keep on dragging the time and dun wan ask her mum to answer my call..she keep on saying that her mum not free and want to walk back..i scold that u always like this one, like to say some sarcastic words to other ppl and doesn’t know this will hurt the ppl that listen to it..always like to provoke ppl doesn’t care abt ppl..this is wat I really really doesn’t like abt her…so wat even if u like those kind of quiet ppl, soft spoken and sometime I can’t even hear wat she say and need her to repeat again and again and again..she always think that she talk very loud..oh please, speak until so soft still want to say very loud…got something wrong with u ark…well, we really can’t ppl by the cover sia..then, I say no need to trouble ur mum, I will walk back myself..at the end I really walk back myself and when I reached home, she still dare to ask me why didn’t ask her mum to go n fetch me..what the hell..still dare to say this, I already very angry and showing her the BLACK FACE already…idiot….

Now…this come back to me again…I still figuring how to live with her under the same roof..oh my goodness gracious….hope she dun make me angry and more angry…I wont entertain her and answer all those ‘qns’…pray hard…..

Dun wan to talk anymore…

Feel more comfortable now after complaining so much…..

Good night..

♥ Last Written @ 4:57 PM